Over the past week (last Sunday to today) God has been moving and speaking to me in such clarity and volume that I struggled to write it all down and to communicate all in my spirit effectively.
As I have recounted and revisited my conversations with God that I determined it took place in two very important steps. Two steps with a precursor happening months ago.
The precursor – my soul word.
This is not based on any training or as far as I know, anyone else’s sermon. It was the phrase/terminology God gave to me so I could even begin to communicate the soul transformation occurring within me.
Precursor word: It is well.
I didn’t choose this word. The hymn and the song are favorites of mine prior to this word being dropped in my soul. But it wasn’t the word I would have gone with…if I was in charge of the words necessary for soul healing. But I’m not. So I didn’t. Thanks God.
2 Kings 4:8-37
I can’t even begin to type without feeling the gravity of this passage in my heart.
It brings tears to my eyes. The Word of God yes…but this. This story in particular…oh my.
If you are unfamiliar with this passage, it is about the Shunammite woman and her son.
I called her Suzy. To help make me more of a person than just a character. In fact, I gave all of them names…except Elisha. He had one already.
Suzy is married to a wealthy man. Due to their physical location they were on the normal traveling route of Elisha – the man of God. The closest thing to God without actually being God (at the time). When Elisha would pass by, Suzy would be a wonderful hostess. Feeding Elisha, watering his camels, giving him a place to rest his feet before finishing his day’s journey. After some time, she asks her husband George to build Elisha a room for him to sleep and have time alone. To truly rest for the night and not for just a few hours before walking some more. George builds Elisha a room and Elisha is extremely grateful. He wants to repay Suzy for her faithful kindness. She never turned him away or said no. He calls her in to his room after finding out, she has no children. He promises her a son. She adamantly refuses because she has given up hope. She is content with being George’s wife and serving the man of God. He doesn’t listen and promises her a son anyway. She doesn’t even really believe him.
The promise is fulfilled and Suzy is literally the happiest she has ever been. More happy and fulfilled than she ever thought possible. It was bliss. Her son, Ben, was beautiful. Helpful and loved spending time with his daddy in the fields. One normal day, Ben is out with George and begins to have a severe headache. He is rushed home…to die. Suzy was with him. Her heart stops. The promise she had given up hope for is gone. The promise she cried out against is now dead. The promise that was fulfilled…was ripped away from her so suddenly. Her precious baby. His first laugh, first word, first steps, and so much more race through her mind. She decides…Elisha caused this. Elisha will fix it. She doesn’t run through the house screaming and wailing. Elisha will fix this. She places Ben in Elisha’s room – the closest place to God’s presence that she can get without Elisha being present. She closes the door with Ben inside. Everyone asks her what happened…her response “It is well.”
She goes to Elisha and in bitter anguish and despair she reveals the reason for her visit – God hid it from Elisha because God wanted Suzy to reveal it to God, herself. Elisha goes to Suzy and George’s house, into the room he normally stayed in – where Ben’s body was – and prays. Elisha is then a vessel for God to perform a miracle in raising Ben to life and restoring Suzy’s promise back to her.
Her response in the greatest tragedy of her life…it rocks my world. Shakes my soul. And heals it from the bitterness in my own life.
Promises to me from God have yet to be fulfilled…these promises though they look dead (as in no hope, no way out, no possible explanation as to why they are dead) – we have to place them in God’s presence. They are promises from God. He gives them to us. We must give them back to Him for Him to do His miracle with. *Place your promise in the presence of the ALMIGHTY and MORE THAN ENOUGH GOD. He created the promise – He won’t let it die. It will live. *
As the promise is in God’s presence, we must come to Jesus with our bitterness, our questions, our doubts, our fears, our hurt, our misunderstandings. I openly admit – there was bitterness in my heart over my promises. There isn’t anymore because God is GOOD. We have to get that out of our hearts so God can come in and heal our wounds. Bind up our broken hearts. He won’t fix something if you don’t admit there is something wrong. The minute you admit it, He is there with the solution.
Once we come to Jesus, we have placed the promise at His feet and told him all of our emotions that are tied to that promise, once we have done…LOOK OUT! then the miracle can happen. Sometimes the miracle is something tangible. A physical healing. A bill is paid for unexpectedly. Debt is forgiven. A family member/loved one/friend comes into a relationship with Jesus.
And yet sometimes, the healing is in our attitude regarding the problem. This was me. My soul was sick. Almost dead from hope deferred. But God in His mercy, brought me my soul word. The word (phrase) I needed to deal with the promise not yet fulfilled. The word I needed to use as the healing balm for my soul in order for the miracle to take place.
It has taken some time to get my soul ready for the miracle. The promise has not yet been fulfilled as of this moment but I am telling you, my soul has never been this on fire, this ready to take on a mountain, take on an army of demons, fearless in the face of human impossibilities – it started with
Are you ready to start? Are you ready to seek and receive your soul healing word?